the future and the plans.

i believe i have chosen the most stressful, time consuming career. but i also know, that it is worth every second, tear, rejection and pain.

acting. drama. theatre. performing. stage. makeup. long hours. no sleep. zombie-like appearance. stress. aches. pains. so much rejection. feeling worthless. feeling the greatest. bad auditions. terrible callbacks. auditions that make you so happy you want to cry. hearing "congratulations". crying because you're so excited. having no time. feeling selfish. not caring. hurting people. being hurt. moving on. costumes. scripts. friends. learning. important. and i think the most important thing amongst many other things to do with being an actress/actor passion. you need to have a shitload of passion for this art. if you don't you're wasting your time and everybody elses. nobody wants to give you a role if you aren't going to put the effort in or just going to turn it down. every opportunity you are given to do with acting, is one you should take in order to take things further. well at least that's what i have learnt. and thats what i am going to do. take every opportunity that i can to make this career the brightest and most exciting that anybody has ever been apart of. 

anyway. welcome to my life. well that side of it anyway. there is also my amazing family who put up with all of this stress with me and help me out no matter what. 

and my amazing friends who laugh at me when i cry and scream and jump around when i get something that seems so small but is a big thing to me. whether it has nothing to do with acting or everything, they're by my side. and i couldnt ask for more in friends. 

and there's also Angus. we have been together for a little while, not years but whatevzz., but every time i mention this career he's so supportive and passionate about it too. i wish there was any way i could say thank you for that, he doesn't realise how much it means to me, he never will, BUT he knows that i love him, and to an extent, how much i do, i hope he's there for always, because he's made me understand just how important all of this is and what i can succeed in life. he's awesome.

there is also teachers and other peers who have been there giving me a hand if i need help, or just having an amazing time with me, laughing and making me miss them so much that i start to go "woah, i've known some of these people for not even a year, and they're some of the greatest people in my life" so thanks babies.

i am only young and this is only a tiny little part of my future but, it's a big one at the same time and i know it will kill me at the end of the day, but like i said, every second will be more than worth it and i can only hope for the best.

wish me luck. i'm preparing for an audition... ;)