the future and the plans.

i believe i have chosen the most stressful, time consuming career. but i also know, that it is worth every second, tear, rejection and pain.

acting. drama. theatre. performing. stage. makeup. long hours. no sleep. zombie-like appearance. stress. aches. pains. so much rejection. feeling worthless. feeling the greatest. bad auditions. terrible callbacks. auditions that make you so happy you want to cry. hearing "congratulations". crying because you're so excited. having no time. feeling selfish. not caring. hurting people. being hurt. moving on. costumes. scripts. friends. learning. important. and i think the most important thing amongst many other things to do with being an actress/actor passion. you need to have a shitload of passion for this art. if you don't you're wasting your time and everybody elses. nobody wants to give you a role if you aren't going to put the effort in or just going to turn it down. every opportunity you are given to do with acting, is one you should take in order to take things further. well at least that's what i have learnt. and thats what i am going to do. take every opportunity that i can to make this career the brightest and most exciting that anybody has ever been apart of. 

anyway. welcome to my life. well that side of it anyway. there is also my amazing family who put up with all of this stress with me and help me out no matter what. 

and my amazing friends who laugh at me when i cry and scream and jump around when i get something that seems so small but is a big thing to me. whether it has nothing to do with acting or everything, they're by my side. and i couldnt ask for more in friends. 

and there's also Angus. we have been together for a little while, not years but whatevzz., but every time i mention this career he's so supportive and passionate about it too. i wish there was any way i could say thank you for that, he doesn't realise how much it means to me, he never will, BUT he knows that i love him, and to an extent, how much i do, i hope he's there for always, because he's made me understand just how important all of this is and what i can succeed in life. he's awesome.

there is also teachers and other peers who have been there giving me a hand if i need help, or just having an amazing time with me, laughing and making me miss them so much that i start to go "woah, i've known some of these people for not even a year, and they're some of the greatest people in my life" so thanks babies.

i am only young and this is only a tiny little part of my future but, it's a big one at the same time and i know it will kill me at the end of the day, but like i said, every second will be more than worth it and i can only hope for the best.

wish me luck. i'm preparing for an audition... ;)

i've noticed "the lovely bones" makes me very sad, and i cry alot, about anything after i watch it. it makes me sick knowing people like that are out there and its not just a few, its far too many. 

i watched that with angus. and how i met your mother. and the loved ones. is that it? i think so. 

its hot.
i have new hair.
there is ants.

i am a girl. (well duh)

bought new shoes. (WOOOOHOOOO)

gunna keep it to a minimum, for i have other things to do, many luhfs.

FACT: my brother is the one with the hat. the other two are like my brothers, but are my cousins.

im wearing my bintang singlet.

that is all.

YEW HEW WOAH.

i know i was making the other blog to have shorter posts

BUT

MY BEST FRIEND IS WITH ME SO FUCK THAT. I'LL DO WHAT I WANT, BITCHES.

ohgoodnessicantbelievethatjusthappenedahwtf.

let me first say this...

Katy Perry WITHOUT makeup on resulted in ME getting a lecture off my mother about how i shouldn't wear makeup all the time.

Anyway, the other day i spent the day in Newtown with one of my best friends, who i havent seen in far too long, so we went to the happy herb shop, spent a lot of money and bought a picnic basket XD
In the end our friend Ethan joined us and such then we went back to Tamara's. We ended up having dinner and seeing a movie then dropping Ethan home, it was a very eventful day.

The next day, being awake with no makeup on, this photo was taken...

I know right, HOW CREEPY AM I?

Then i ventured home to shower and what not then it was off to see Angus after bit over a week of not seeing him. Everything felt a little bit different at first but it really didn't take long to be the same as it always was..

SO now i have spent a fair bit of time with Angus, watching How I Met Your Mother, bringing in the New Year, and what not.

Speaking of, HAPPY NEW YEAR.

This year has potential, its pregnant, get me? haha - isn't that a quote from skins?

My new years resolution is to take every opportunity i get, because who knows what it may lead to, right? I have had a big year in 2010, an amazing year and i thank everybody who has been apart of it, but for now i am so excited for this year, 2011. There's something about it, i can feel it, it's going to be fantastic!

2011 is my home boy.
 So im going to go now, but my cousin turns 3 tomorrow, so HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALEXANDER <3 

i was thinking a bit more about tattoo's too, considering my star sign, virgo?

hmm...